Right now stressing, hubby got notice his job is delayed due to two companies they are trying to do an employment verification isn't answering their phones, we found out one company laid everyone off so no one is in the office and the second one has everyone working from home due to covid so no one in the office to answer the phones so we aren't sure what's going to happen, he is already hired and did the drug screening and extensive background check, that too was stressful, much more detailed than a normal background check.
Sorry to hear that pk. I'll pray for y'all.
What am I doing? I spot edited Chapter 46 of the 1732 historical and am fixing to do 48 and hopefully 49. And then I'm done with that for today. I'm hoping to finish Chapter 28 of A Deadly Spill of Scarlet tonight. I can't wait to release the historical so I can spend more time writing the crime novel.
Thanks Cindy, one job did get verified and he emailed the other company to tell them that he needs them to send the employment verification form to his soon to be job so they can get this done, waiting to hear back from them that they sent it.
Listening to my cat running around at six am, like someone set fire to his tail. Been awake since two am after falling asleep at ten. Debating if I should read, write, or go kill the cat (joking I wouldn't hurt him for anything).
I bet they were cute as a button, Cindy. I love mine to pieces. On the phone with USPS about to chew their butts, as they said it was delivered, left in mailbox
I am having a stiff drink. I have had a day at work. First of all dude came through drive so high he could barely order and everyone in the window area was at risk for contact high. Read the order back FOUR TIMES and it was STILL wrong but I blame HIM.
THEN.... dumpster fire. No, an ACTUAL fire in our ACTUAL dumpster. We have two, one for regular trash, garbage, food. And one for cardboard boxes. It was of course the cardboard box one that caught fire. I just couldn't....
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
I woke up a few moments ago and saw a FB text from the pastor of a church whose missions I support a little bit. I just donate to his mission board without knowing exactly where the money goes (never fear, I know this guy). Anyway, he sent me one of his books (for free) and thanked me for giving. Turns out, my money is going to the Native American people in North Dakota! He couldn't possible have known these peoples as well as the Cherokee of course have always been dear to my heart and I've always wished I could help them. And now I am in just a little way. I was in tears when I read his message. God is good!
Thank you Cindy for your support, many people think that Natives are rich because of the casinos, the money doesn't trickle down all the way wish it did.
Taking a break from cleaning out the fridge. Totally cleaned out most of the food and old condiments, placed a massive grocery order, hubby is crying (not really) over the food bill, but yah know tried of going to eat and not meal prepping or planning. The fridge hasn't been wiped down in a month, ewww so it's getting a good scrubbing .
Right now, watching Look Who's Talking Too on Prime Video, drinking, messing around online, and texting Wonder Twin. She came to visit today and just got home safely an hour ago. I miss her already, even though we text daily.
We finished up My Hero Academia, we're ready for the movie to come out on DVD and digital at the end of the month and season five to be released whenever. Took a break to play a massive game of CAH with my three roommates and one roommate's girlfriend. Seven players altogether and it could've been more fun if the cards had been better. My roommates have the ENTIRE set, all expansion packs. I suggested adding this meme game that goes along with CAH.
I cooked as I always do when they're here, they miss my cooking. I made sausage, egg, and cheese stuffed biscuits and also some cream cheese danishes. My roommates love it when I cook, too. LOL. We had that for brunch and then later ordered a 12-pack of taco supremes from Taco Bell via DoorDash.
They're going to try to come back next month before the weather gets bad, and bring the My Hero Academia movie. Then we'll take a break over the winter. It's a 2-1/2 hour drive for them, one drives half an hour to pick up the other, and then two hours to my place. I don't want them doing it when it's snowing or threatening to snow. We'll probably start doing a Zoom call once a week or so until winter's over.
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
Still drinking, watching Sister Act 2 now (forgot how much Elvis music is in Look Who's Talking Too, Elvis is a HUGE trigger for me), and piddlefarting online. Trying to figure out what the heck happened when I upgraded my phone to Android 11....methinks I'll go post about it in the tech thread.....
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
I was going to share a photo, but instead I'm looking all over the place for that cool picture I used to have of two turds on a plate.
A faulty hypothesis forming:
A German scientist using Iranian physics and French mathematics.
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
Vacilitating between feeling sad about the loss of Eddie Van Halen and reliving some good times after watching Van Halen: The Early Years on Netflix. He meant a lot to me is all I feel like saying about him right now.
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On bus number one to work. I take the first bus to the station where I catch the second one that will take me directly to work. Well across the street from work but that's not a huge deal. It's payday and that means Sonic for breakfast. They're next door to us.
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
Home from work, fresh from the shower, fresh drink poured (cherry vodka in cherry sparkling water), and watching Madea's Big Happy Family. After working 6 days straight I'm gonna enjoy my 2 days off.
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
I love Madea, right now looking at the forum, feeling sleepy, had major panic attack today, was feeling sick to my stomach, hormones are crazy this month, been crying and then angry. So not sure if I just want to veg out with a show or read or what.
I have all the Madea movies on VUDU, bought a package deal. VUDU isn't compatible with my Kindle Fire, and it won't let you watch movies in pop-out view on other devices, which sucks. I like to watch in a pop out window and do other things like play games, scroll Facebook, or check the forums here. I stumbled across Big Happy Family on Amazon Prime.
Right now, I'm polishing off a Mango-Rita, got a peach mango Smirnoff Ice Smash up next before I start on the hard stuff. Diet Coke and cherry vodka. I'm celebrating one year out of the closet. I actually came out yesterday a year ago, but today is National Coming Out Day. I even made my first TikTok in celebration. (I'm LatinLez69 over there if any of you want to give a follow.) I have like 26 followers and until today had no videos of my own and it felt kind of weird. Why follow someone with no videos?
And dissuading a little girl on Twitter who's been flirting with me most of the evening. If her avatar is an actual selfie, she's cute as can be with a resemblance to Emma Roberts. BUT she's 24. Schmoo is 22, he'll be 23 in April. I cannot date someone the same age as my children.
Not to mention she's in Texas and I'm in Missouri. I'm not moving, and I'm not doing a LDR. I did that once before, and it was okay then, but now? Wonder Twin has taught me that not all touch has to hurt or be sexual, and now I thrive on safe, non-sexual touch like hugs, cuddles, backrubs. I need it. (Yes, this pandemic has damn near killed me.)
I won't date anyone under 30. Wonder Twin is 28, and if she'd come out, I'd make an exception for her. But she's straight as a ruler. Seriously though under 30 and you run the risk of her lying about her age and you ending up in prison and then on the sex offender registry. NO. I just turned 47 two weeks ago. I'm old enough to be her mother!
I'm talking to a girl on MeetMe who is 2 hours away and that's more doable. She's 29, though, and that is pushing it age wise. But we shall see where it goes. I don't know. I really want someone closeby, who can come over at a moment's notice, or could text me she's on her way to pick me up for whatever shenanigans. *sigh* Dating isn't easy.
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
Just finished working out, checking the board and waiting for my psych to call me for my telephone appointment, hoping they continue to do this as now that hubby is back to work he won't be able to take me to my therapy and psych sessions and I don't drive anymore and it's getting harder for me to leave the house.
Sending Instacart a thank you email. This is different. Publix had Oscar Mayer hot dogs on sale at buy 1 get 1 free, and coke buy 2 get 2 free. I ordered both, and the shipper brought out 6 packs of dogs for the price of one and 8 packs of cokes for the price of 2. Wasn't my fault, and I could have just kept my mouth shut, but I try to be honest. So, I reported it. And they aren't going to charge me for the extra stuff. Lol. I got hot dogs in the freezer and I got Diet cokes spread out. Lol.
It's gone past noon here and I'm thinking it might be time for breakfast before Wonder Twin's Spidey senses start tingling and she starts texting, "Have you eaten yet?" I've got a single slice of Spam to try, I've never had it. Other than that I'm not doing anything except gaming and messing around on FB and TikTok.
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
I just heated this up and added it to an egg and cheese muffin. It wasn't too bad. Salty yes, not something I could eat every day because I'd get tired of it quickly and not like it anymore. I'll probably continue buying just a single slice or two here and there instead of a whole can. A whole can would probably go to waste. The grocery store closest to me sells single slices for a dollar.
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
Making some rice in the instapot, dealing with neck pain, it gets like that when I don't stretch often enough, waiting on a woman to call me back about going and seeing a mobile home on Saturday, keeps fingers crossed we can get it as it's 57,500 and that is hella cheap here in San Diego.
Last edited by pkstracy; 10-20-2020 at 05:38 PM.
Thanks Cindy, I hope we get it, it's in a 55 plus senior park but they are making an exception for hubby and I since we don't party, smoke or anything like that and the owner wants to sell as soon as possible.
Well just got notice that someone made an offer on the mobile home and they accepted the offer and the person wrote them a check right then and there for the whole amount, I guess it wasn't meant to be...perhaps next year.
Sorry to hear that. Maybe sooner than next year.
Modding.
I've been gaming. Might lay down and watch the new season of Unsolved Mysteries on Netflix. The first epi does not stand up to the first one last season. We'll see how the other's hold up.
Sissy's spending the night with Brittany's fam, and I'm here all alone. Somebody would start a post-a-pic-of-your-mother challenge, and I had to post one of mama. Now I'm having a sad. I keep wondering if I somehow failed her. If I'd tried harder to get her sober...
Cindy, You didn't fail her the only way someone can get sober is if they want to do it themselves, you can talk and lead them but you can't make them.
*hugs Cindy,* Sitting here trying to read all I can about bipolar, I got diagnosed Friday..yay. So am looking up some books and articles and what alternatives I can do instead of meds to help me.
I am having a big piss off. I went into the living room to get something, which enraged my sister's mean rabbit-tailed calico cat. Did I say she was mad? Oh, man. She went after my left hand just as I got an inkling she was angry because I had the gall to be standing near her hooman's couch. I was scratched, gouged, and bleeding and had pump bruises. I was hysterical. I fought the urge to run to my room because you don't run from a mad animal. I grabbed up the throw to toss over her if she charged, and slowly backed into the kitchen, around the table, sat down, and hoped she would give it up. Not a chance. She was sneaking toward me from under the table when Sissy got up and got her into her bedroom and shut the door.
Last edited by cindyt; 10-25-2020 at 08:38 PM.
It's not an easy diagnosis to deal with. Ex has it and both Miss E and Schmoopy have it. It's a chemical imbalance in your brain and you may NEED medication. That's not a failure on your part, dear, it's not I promise. It helps keep you on an even keel. I honestly don't know if the meds will help or hinder your appetite. Mine is non-existent for 3 weeks out of the month.
"Tequila may not be the answer, but it's worth a shot."
"I just go here!"
"I am not psychic. I AM psychotic. BIG difference."
CIndy, I am so sorry that your hand got attacked I hope you are okay. Ria so far I have been okay without meds. On most days I have no appetite and then others I cannot stop eating.
I don't have bipolar, I have DID. But my appetite is non-existent 3 weeks out of the month. I have to eat by the clock: it's 7:30am. I need to get up and get ready for work. Either eat before I leave or take breakfast with me. 1? Break time, eat lunch. 7pm? I'm home, need to have dinner before the night night juice drink. (Alcoholic beverage.) Days off are harder because there's no structure to my days.
Yesterday I had a meal and a half. Today two meals and a snack. BUT "that time" started yesterday and when that happens, my appetite disappears for another 3 weeks. The week leading up to it I have an appetite and eat more or less normally. It's usually the first clue for me, and anyone around me, that something is up.
I have an aquaintences from Sidney, Australia, who when she was a teenager was kidnapped and held hostage for three days. She either escaped or was rescued. But one day afterward, she climbed up on the roof of her school and threatened to jump off. Somebody talked her down. She was taken to a mental hospital where she was diagnosed with bipolar. She insists her kidnapping caused it. Does that make sense?
Oh, and I'm formatting my historical for ebook submission. Next month will be the paperback.
As far as I know traumatic events don't cause Bipolar, it runs in the family and is a chemical imbalance in the brain, however she could have PTSD, Panic attacks, depression which could be caused by her kidnapping, it's hard to diagnose bipolar as it mimics so many other mental health issues.