Hello friends! I am brand-spanking-new to the FAD forums (although I've read every story on FAD). I've been on a big AIC kick lately and in my travels, stumbled across this little gem! (I was 12 in '96, and remember my older brother who was 18 at the time making a huge deal about AIC doing an Unplugged and stayed up to watch with him, which he hated by the way, and really liked what I heard!!)
Sadly, I don't have anything new to say, it's all been said. I very much enjoy AIC, Layne, he was very handsome, seemed smart and funny, not to mention talented, etc... I read pages 1-47 of the first thread and I admit it, I totally gave up, so I cheated and came here (but you can't blame me, there's like 175 pages, and that amount of computer time takes more dedication than I have at the moment!)
I do have some questions/comments that I haven't seen/read. First, a comment. I know that there isn't anything you can do to help someone that doesn't want to be helped, and with more than just substance abuse, however, if it were someone I loved, I'm sorry, but heroin is illegal and I would just continually call the cops on your ass and have you arrested... have your dealers that bring the shit to your house arrested... and anyone that came there to do it with you arrested. It may or may not help, but I would just do it over and over... and when you stopped telling me where you lived, I'd find someone else that loved you and ask that they do the same. I understand its COMPLETELY selfish to keep someone alive only for yourself, but even if you ended up hating me with your entire being, I would still have to try, and even the small bouts of sobriety you had in jail would be better than nothing.
I know it's not that easy. And I know that it probably did get hard being around him when he made it clear he didn't want people there. And I read somewhere that when the police played back his answering machine, there were several messages from people trying to get a hold of him... and I know that he lived in a condo where he probably had to buzz you in before you could enter the building... I know there were obstacles, but someone should have tried harder. The someone shouldn't have had to of been the dude that balanced his checkbook once a month... (I know, easier said than done).
I also think that doing what you want to do at 34 should absolutely be allowed, but I also read a Layne quote once where he said something along the lines of 'people have the right to ask questions when what you're doing hurts people'... he was SMART... he knew that everyone that cared about him had a TOTAL right in doing so, but maybe those words were spoken before the drug use was irreversible... maybe they weren't and were said in one of those moments of clarity us humans stumble upon from time to time.
Layne's story is sad. But not only because it is 'over' (so to speak), or because it is a famous musician that is looked up to, even 15 years after his fame, but because it is like any other drug addict that has anything going for them. Layne's Moms comments to other rehab-ers (did I just make up a word?) regarding how you want a normal, boring, predictable life speak VOLUMES. It has to be said that at the end of the day, any drug user probably wishes that their current life isn't what it is, but then you pass out and wake up feening for the shit and the cycle stars over... YouTube the documentary 'Black Tar Heroin'... heartbreaking.
I'm kind of turning this into a loooooong post, but the only question I have on Layne, or should I say Layne-related, is did he still pretty much do everything for himself on a daily basis? (and the answers will probably most likely be speculations, since Im sure no one knows), but he HAD to eat while in 'hiding', otherwise he wouldnt have lived 6 WEEKS, let alone 6 YEARS... did he grocery shop, do his own laundry, buy his cat kitty-liter, take out garbage? It seems strange to me that the other people in his condo (which seems like a schnazzy place to live) were cool with heroin dealers roaming their halls...
Just a thought! And it's nice to meet you all!!
