I know alan ... I can remember where I was for both the Challenger and Columbia.
Nation in shock.
With Columbia I awoke early made coffee cooked breakfast for family, and decided, (7:30?) to curl up in bed watch the morning news and then shop, clean, etc.
I knew, when I heard the first hesitation on Columbia, it was gone. I felt paralyzed again and I couldn't do anything for an hour or so after I knew Columbia was gone.
Something endemic in our psyche that imprints and for me, I can have death discussions but also I know I have a limit and need diversion.